Pinky Promise chapter 9 “Revelations”

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(Translated by JustForFon)

Part 1

Ah….. Today at morning Proud didn’t want to go to school.

Proud didn’t know how to do when she met Noon. She didn’t know how to greet her. She didn’t know does Noon still anger Proud from moment in yesterday? She didn’t know can she hide her bitter and melancholy that everyone can’t see? And she didn’t know if Noon will say she love Notto.

But she had to go to school.

Proud walked to greet Gook who was playing her smartphone at marble bench. Gook saw to Proud and she said hi to Proud.

“I swam at yesterday and looked like I hurt my body a lot. How about you?” Gook opened her conversation.

“Yeah. I’m too.” Proud said and she laid her bag to marble table. Then she sat onto marble bench.

“Hey!!! So last night did you say with Noon?” Gook asked.

“No. Why?” Proud doubted.

“She sent messages to me, but I already slept. I sent message back to her at the morning and she didn’t reply back. I didn’t know what happened with her. So I will ask her.”

Oh… Looked like Proud’s mood test challenged her. When she saw Noon who was holding her bag with Notto who was walking with Noon together. Noon contacted her eyes to Proud first and she waved her hand as farewell Notto. Notto grinned before he walked away from Noon. Gook saw and she used her leg to touch Proud’s leg to send signal what happened with Noon. Do you know about that? But Proud didn’t answer. She only closed her mouth and do everything as usual as same as she never knew what happened between Notto and Noon.

Until Noon walked to greet Proud and Noon, although Proud tried to do everything naturally, but Proud felt about some feeling was complicated.

“Yesterday you sent message to me. What did you want to say?” Gook asked.

Noon stopped to think “Oh!! I wanted to ask about homework. Nothing.”

3 girls silenced temporally. Gook felt Noon kept something. So Gook asked to Noon directly “So how about Noon and Notto?”

Proud saw to Noon and looked like Noon’s mood hesitated to say. Proud didn’t know that was confusion or shy feeling. Finally Noon answered immediately without seeing Proud “Now Notto is my boyfriend.”

!!!!?

Silence appeared again. If this was usual close friend group, when someone announced about in a relationship, another close friends felt excited and wanted to teased together. But Gook asked to Noon “Are you sure?”

“I try to be in a relationship with him. Notto is really nice. He always takes care me.” Noon answered. Gook nodded her head and smiled with Noon’s decision. But Proud didn’t say anything. She insincerely smiled and agreed with the truth.

But that was first mood test. When news about Noon was Notto’s boyfriend spread together and Noon was a famous runner that many girls loved him, classmates always asked Noon about was it real? Noon always said “Yes” and she let her friends scream and appreciated about Notto and Noon were compatible together. But only bitchy Ping that still insulted Noon about why Noon changed her mind to love boy? Proud was lazy to argue Ping so she ignored that voice of piece of shit.

Ah… Looked like bell rang in lunch time, so every students in grade 12 room 1 got out from their seat and went to canteen.

“Let’s have lunch. I’m hungry.” Gook hurried.

“So this noon Proud have lunch with Gook.” Noon said to Gook. But actually she said loudly to let Proud heard. “I will have lunch with Notto.”

“Yeah!!! You have boyfriend so you don’t have lunch with your friend.” Gook said with sulking.

“No No No!!!” Noon said. “So you go with Proud.”

Proud saw Notto who was waiting outside classroom. Noon greeted Noon, Proud and Gook before she will waved his hand to Noon. Noon turned her face to smile and she held her hand with Notto to walk together. That picture made Proud felt terrible until she couldn’t tolerate. Gook only did with touching Proud’s shoulder to give will. Proud insincerely smile and said thank you to Gook that she still understand her feeling.

At canteen, Proud still peeped Noon who was having lunch with Notto often. Inside her heart, she still thought someone who was sitting near Noon should be her. But how to do with this? When she decided to do everything to be eliminated with herself. Proud thought to apologize Noon rapidly although her mind was timid. She never agreed who she was. She didn’t dare to confess to her mom about she was different from mom’s desire. She didn’t dare to appear love between Noon and her to another one knew. It wasn’t wrong if Noon wanted to touch and walked together with her love without caring anyone. Noon wanted to be taken care and be important. And she wanted “clearly” lover.

But Proud couldn’t give these to Noon. Her love that she gave to Noon was hidden love and couldn’t tell to anyone. If Noon felt tired, given up, that was a thing Proud ondy agreed and couldn’t request more.

Although the sky at after noon was fresh, but Proud’s mind was dark and complicated. She understood about everything were ended. Noon chose someone that wasn’t her Both were “friend” absolutely. Nothing let Proud reviewed. But she couldn’t throw her complicated story away from her head.

Part 2

Proud went to her home and did everything she should do, such as keeping her bag, taking a bath, going to dinning table to have dinner, washing dishes, doing homework, opening computer and surf net. She hoped her routines made her passed this day without feeling sad as same as another day. But when Proud saw pictures that Noon was tagged by Notto on Facebook. It was a picture that Notto and Noon took together. Both smiled together. Proud saw to comments below pictures, there were someone wrote to tease Notto and Noon with their envy. Proud saw to that photo with long time and she thought should she press like button? But Proud couldn’t do it. Proud leaned her back to her chair tiredly and she saw to the windows in her room.

Many her ideas and her feeling crashed to her mind again. Although she repeated herself about her routine was good, but her painful heart told her about she thought wrong. Proud breathed in deeply and opened desk drawer to pick book and pen. Then she released her feeling to the paper immediately.

Noon…

Do you remember a day you met me with first time?
A day that I was new student. I didn’t know who I wanted to sit. You invited me to sit together. And you played my kitty stationery box.

Do you remember a day we played sparkler?
We were very fun. And you stealthy took photo to me too. 
Do you know I liked your photo you took very much. Now I still kept that photos in my computer.

Do you remember the day that my anxiety was very high and I talked shyly in front of classroom?
You saw to me and you sent your heart, you trusted me.
Finally I defeated my fear completely.

Do you remember the day you brought me to watch concert?
I and you screamed extremely, sang a song excitedly. Finally we went home lately. You substituted to receive my fault to prevent my mom scolded (finally I was scolded.)

Do you remember that time?
A time we laughed together, enjoyed and went everywhere together… You told funny stories that wasn’t funny, but I helped you to laugh for giving your spirit to tell later.

A time you liked to tease me, such as pulling bra, show your enormous eyes, used highlight marker to write my skin, tickled my waist when I was standing on national flag until teacher saw.

When I cried. You stayed with me and let me leaned your shoulder until your student uniform was wet because of my tears. You took care me until I felt better.

A time we were happy, go to urban park together, only I and you that saw sunset together.

A time you felt sad with my bad behaviors I felt bad that made you felt sad because of me.

Do you know I never forget our time we stuck together.

It started with friendship, mutuality that we gave together until it grew to love. You waited me to held our hand and walked together, but I didn’t do with my heart. I said refusing you to everyone about I never loved you. I didn’t love girl and you felt sad often. That came from my fear and disagreement. It should be that you walked away from me to start new relationship with someone.

Noon… I wanted you to know about I loved you very much. I didn’t know how much your heart was painful from my rejections. I am sorry. Every happened from my faults. And I hope we will return to be close friend again.

Do you remember when we pinky promised we were friends together? If I had opportunity to pinky promise, I will change our promise from close friend together to be lover together

I want to know I love you very much. ❤

Proud.

Proud reviewed everything she wrote often and she agreed every words she wrote. She answered her heart clearly about how much she loved Noon. That was very high desire that wanted everything returned to be usual as the meaning “Return to love as usual, return to take care together as usual, return to hold our hand together as usual”. Proud won’t make Noon to be sad forever. She didn’t care sights from anyone forever. Proud won’t lose Noon from her because her fucking fear.

So… This time Proud had to do with desire from her heart.

Part 1

Ah….. Today at morning Proud didn’t want to go to school.

Proud didn’t know how to do when she met Noon. She didn’t know how to greet her. She didn’t know does Noon still anger Proud from moment in yesterday? She didn’t know can she hide her bitter and melancholy that everyone can’t see? And she didn’t know if Noon will say she love Notto.

But she had to go to school.

Proud walked to greet Gook who was playing her smartphone at marble bench. Gook saw to Proud and she said hi to Proud.

“I swam at yesterday and looked like I hurt my body a lot. How about you?” Gook opened her conversation.

“Yeah. I’m too.” Proud said and she laid her bag to marble table. Then she sat onto marble bench.

“Hey!!! So last night did you say with Noon?” Gook asked.

“No. Why?” Proud doubted.

“She sent messages to me, but I already slept. I sent message back to her at the morning and she didn’t reply back. I didn’t know what happened with her. So I will ask her.”

Oh… Looked like Proud’s mood test challenged her. When she saw Noon who was holding her bag with Notto who was walking with Noon together. Noon contacted her eyes to Proud first and she waved her hand as farewell Notto. Notto grinned before he walked away from Noon. Gook saw and she used her leg to touch Proud’s leg to send signal what happened with Noon. Do you know about that? But Proud didn’t answer. She only closed her mouth and do everything as usual as same as she never knew what happened between Notto and Noon.

Until Noon walked to greet Proud and Noon, although Proud tried to do everything naturally, but Proud felt about some feeling was complicated.

“Yesterday you sent message to me. What did you want to say?” Gook asked.

Noon stopped to think “Oh!! I wanted to ask about homework. Nothing.”

3 girls silenced temporally. Gook felt Noon kept something. So Gook asked to Noon directly “So how about Noon and Notto?”

Proud saw to Noon and looked like Noon’s mood hesitated to say. Proud didn’t know that was confusion or shy feeling. Finally Noon answered immediately without seeing Proud “Now Notto is my boyfriend.”

!!!!?

Silence appeared again. If this was usual close friend group, when someone announced about in a relationship, another close friends felt excited and wanted to teased together. But Gook asked to Noon “Are you sure?”

“I try to be in a relationship with him. Notto is really nice. He always takes care me.” Noon answered. Gook nodded her head and smiled with Noon’s decision. But Proud didn’t say anything. She insincerely smiled and agreed with the truth.

But that was first mood test. When news about Noon was Notto’s boyfriend spread together and Noon was a famous runner that many girls loved him, classmates always asked Noon about was it real? Noon always said “Yes” and she let her friends scream and appreciated about Notto and Noon were compatible together. But only bitchy Ping that still insulted Noon about why Noon changed her mind to love boy? Proud was lazy to argue Ping so she ignored that voice of piece of shit.

Ah… Looked like bell rang in lunch time, so every students in grade 12 room 1 got out from their seat and went to canteen.

“Let’s have lunch. I’m hungry.” Gook hurried.

“So this noon Proud have lunch with Gook.” Noon said to Gook. But actually she said loudly to let Proud heard. “I will have lunch with Notto.”

“Yeah!!! You have boyfriend so you don’t have lunch with your friend.” Gook said with sulking.

“No No No!!!” Noon said. “So you go with Proud.”

Proud saw Notto who was waiting outside classroom. Noon greeted Noon, Proud and Gook before she will waved his hand to Noon. Noon turned her face to smile and she held her hand with Notto to walk together. That picture made Proud felt terrible until she couldn’t tolerate. Gook only did with touching Proud’s shoulder to give will. Proud insincerely smile and said thank you to Gook that she still understand her feeling.

At canteen, Proud still peeped Noon who was having lunch with Notto often. Inside her heart, she still thought someone who was sitting near Noon should be her. But how to do with this? When she decided to do everything to be eliminated with herself. Proud thought to apologize Noon rapidly although her mind was timid. She never agreed who she was. She didn’t dare to confess to her mom about she was different from mom’s desire. She didn’t dare to appear love between Noon and her to another one knew. It wasn’t wrong if Noon wanted to touch and walked together with her love without caring anyone. Noon wanted to be taken care and be important. And she wanted “clearly” lover.

But Proud couldn’t give these to Noon. Her love that she gave to Noon was hidden love and couldn’t tell to anyone. If Noon felt tired, given up, that was a thing Proud ondy agreed and couldn’t request more.

Although the sky at after noon was fresh, but Proud’s mind was dark and complicated. She understood about everything were ended. Noon chose someone that wasn’t her Both were “friend” absolutely. Nothing let Proud reviewed. But she couldn’t throw her complicated story away from her head.

Part 2

Proud went to her home and did everything she should do, such as keeping her bag, taking a bath, going to dinning table to have dinner, washing dishes, doing homework, opening computer and surf net. She hoped her routines made her passed this day without feeling sad as same as another day. But when Proud saw pictures that Noon was tagged by Notto on Facebook. It was a picture that Notto and Noon took together. Both smiled together. Proud saw to comments below pictures, there were someone wrote to tease Notto and Noon with their envy. Proud saw to that photo with long time and she thought should she press like button? But Proud couldn’t do it. Proud leaned her back to her chair tiredly and she saw to the windows in her room.

Many her ideas and her feeling crashed to her mind again. Although she repeated herself about her routine was good, but her painful heart told her about she thought wrong. Proud breathed in deeply and opened desk drawer to pick book and pen. Then she released her feeling to the paper immediately.

Noon…

Do you remember a day you met me with first time?
A day that I was new student. I didn’t know who I wanted to sit. You invited me to sit together. And you played my kitty stationery box.

Do you remember a day we played sparkler?
We were very fun. And you stealthy took photo to me too. 
Do you know I liked your photo you took very much. Now I still kept that photos in my computer.

Do you remember the day that my anxiety was very high and I talked shyly in front of classroom?
You saw to me and you sent your heart, you trusted me.
Finally I defeated my fear completely.

Do you remember the day you brought me to watch concert?
I and you screamed extremely, sang a song excitedly. Finally we went home lately. You substituted to receive my fault to prevent my mom scolded (finally I was scolded.)

Do you remember that time?
A time we laughed together, enjoyed and went everywhere together… You told funny stories that wasn’t funny, but I helped you to laugh for giving your spirit to tell later.

A time you liked to tease me, such as pulling bra, show your enormous eyes, used highlight marker to write my skin, tickled my waist when I was standing on national flag until teacher saw.

When I cried. You stayed with me and let me leaned your shoulder until your student uniform was wet because of my tears. You took care me until I felt better.

A time we were happy, go to urban park together, only I and you that saw sunset together.

A time you felt sad with my bad behaviors I felt bad that made you felt sad because of me.

Do you know I never forget our time we stuck together.

It started with friendship, mutuality that we gave together until it grew to love. You waited me to held our hand and walked together, but I didn’t do with my heart. I said refusing you to everyone about I never loved you. I didn’t love girl and you felt sad often. That came from my fear and disagreement. It should be that you walked away from me to start new relationship with someone.

Noon… I wanted you to know about I loved you very much. I didn’t know how much your heart was painful from my rejections. I am sorry. Every happened from my faults. And I hope we will return to be close friend again.

Do you remember when we pinky promised we were friends together? If I had opportunity to pinky promise, I will change our promise from close friend together to be lover together

I want to know I love you very much. ❤

Proud.

Proud reviewed everything she wrote often and she agreed every words she wrote. She answered her heart clearly about how much she loved Noon. That was very high desire that wanted everything returned to be usual as the meaning “Return to love as usual, return to take care together as usual, return to hold our hand together as usual”. Proud won’t make Noon to be sad forever. She didn’t care sights from anyone forever. Proud won’t lose Noon from her because her fucking fear.

So… This time Proud had to do with desire from her heart.